story of mine

2011-03-25T11:29:00.000-07:00

我真的很累。。。总希望你会明白！

转发-爱过。。。就够了

2011-01-20T08:01:00.000-08:00

如果有一天，我不再因为你没有回我的短信而给你不停的打电话了，

如果有一天，我不再因为你的一句话而瞎想半天了

如果有一天，我生气可以不需要你哄了，

如果有一天，我不再傻傻地坐在手机旁等你短信了，

如果有一天，我允许你可以脱离我的视线了，

如果有一天，我也像你忘记我的话一样忘记了你的话

如过有一天，我允许了你对我的视而不见，

对不起，不是我不爱了，是我。。累了。。麻木了。。我也不想放弃。。只是没有力气了

你伤害了我一次，我可以肆无忌惮的伤心。对你发脾气，要你哄我。然后继续乖乖听你话。像以前一样的需要你的保护和关心、

你伤害了我第二次，我也可以原谅你，不过只是我的笑容少了，可依旧爱着你。包容你。

如果你伤害了我第三次，还像以前那样。用哈哈。。忘了。。之类的词敷衍，我不会生气，对不起。。不是我不爱你了。。也不是不需要你哄了。。因为我知道你在乎的不是我。。我没有力气也没有理由在生气了。。我。。麻木了。。懂得了。。放弃。。

看完的人，请转帖吧。麻木了、我已经不在乎了。。

she is my inspiration

2011-01-15T08:32:00.000-08:00

Just receive a message from my friend. Casting tomorrow at 11am. Venue: Ampang. Owhh, it's so sudden and so rush. I borrow a speaker from my friend, to play the song in my labtop. I also borrow GPS from my friend to reach the destination. There i go! Good luck , peng yin.

peng yin, you are fat

2011-01-15T00:54:00.000-08:00

3 weeks of year end holiday of the ballet centre is so enjoyable for me. My ballet teacher ain't someone, she is like my secondary guru disciplin. Everytime i enter her class, she will mention about my attendance. Oh my dear teacher, can you try to understand my situation. One day of ballet class per week is what i could do.

Students of her are always so stressful. Oh god, she complain about my size today. She said PENG YIN, YOU ARE IN THE FAT CATEGORY NOW! She is a 40years old teacher and she is only 40kg. Dear teacher, i am just different from you, i couldnt be slim as you. because BBQ plaza is my favourite food. =) me and xiao fei can finish the family set.

I promise I will get distinction for my grade 8 examination kay. Don't complain about my size. I will try very hard to attend double or triple classes per week. I will try to remember all the steps you taught before. I will do jogging to improve my stamina. I will attend classes to improve my technique. I will not failed the exam kay. *she always said we will failed in the examination.

EMO in the ballet class today. Luckily it was just an one hour class. phhhiiewww, class end =)

knock out-G dragon&top =)

u're in my mind

2011-01-08T15:14:00.000-08:00

When I wake up , it's already afternoon 3pm. Force myself to wake up from the bed and simply have a shower then fly to my boy's house. Just simply miss him so much. These are the photos :

trying his cap, suit my head's size too =)

without the cap

he took this photo unwillingly but still looks good ♥

According to him, i looks so pale and skin turns bad=( caused by the exam period lo, sleep lately. Don't complain k, will turns good soon*over confident*. A happy day with you =)

still with 2011 mission =)

2011-01-07T11:27:00.000-08:00

When everyone talks about 2011, they will said things to be done in 2011. Some even write in a notes and keep it together with their friends' note, till the end of 2011, they will refer to the notes , whether did they achieve the mission in 2011.

This is mine:
1.improve my ballet skill ( get distinction for my grade 8 exam )
2. go for gym to train my stamina ( ballet exam on april)
3. belly dance
4. x tummy
5. grow taller ( 165cm, but it's impossible)
6. dark circle must be reduce
7. earn more and spend more
8. be happy =)

oh, some may ask ,why you ask for a distinction for ballet exam but not in college result? This is why: I am a last minute and lazy person, so I will not spend more time on my studies. But still, I did study hard in final. watch out of my result , haha =)

A mountain of notes are waiting for me to flip them. End this with a song by Akon-I just had sex. Oops >.<

ballerina on the beach

2011-01-04T04:18:00.000-08:00

It's a brand new year again, and I am officially 20 after my birthday on November. I'm gonna set a mission for myself this year.

and my mission of 2011 is : ballerina on the beach. I'm going to snap a group of pictures like this, and keep it as one of my memories. Gonna done this within this year. Ballet skills are needed to be improved. Cause every action need to hold for more than a second or a minute either, and I'm going to do this very well.

And ya, I need to find a professional photographer. These photos are not easy to snap. Gonna jump like an insane dancer if the photographer is a NOOB one. End up I will be exhausted. Will not let this happen, so a professional photographer is a must.

The album of ballerina on the beach will contain photos like this:

All the best to myself =)

好动的男人

2010-12-30T09:54:00.000-08:00

好动的男人一直都是我的最爱♥

HIGH HIGH-G DRAGON AND TOP

我喜欢G DRAGON

五颜六色的外套就是g dragon

JUST A DREAM-JASON CHEN FEAT JOSEPH VINCENT

我喜欢joseph vincent

黑色衣就是joseph vincent

身体语言很好

他们的共同点就是肢体语言很好，又有笑，牙齿很白

哈哈，就是帅咯<3

还有一张照片，待续~

我饿了

2010-11-26T00:16:00.000-08:00

“我饿了” 是一句很考验人的话...
当你对你妈说：妈，我饿了... 你妈会起身说：我去给你弄吃的。
对爸爸说：爸，我饿了... 爸爸就会笑笑说：好，我们到外面去吃。
对男朋友说：欸，我饿了... 他就会温柔的说：想吃什么咧。
对女朋友说：欸，我饿了... 她永远只会回答：“我也是...”
对小肥说：我饿了... 她就会煮快熟面给我吃^^

DOPE and WHACK

2010-11-24T00:38:00.000-08:00

the musical " patriots of love" had came to an end and now is the time to start assignment.
oh gosh, 5 assignments need to be done in 4 days.
i have done 3 assignments.
the good news or bad news?
miss corina has something to do on this friday so the summision of logistic assignment will be postponed to next tuesday.
hmm.. means 2 assignments will be postponed. and i will be lazy to do my individual assignments which i have not started yet.
but still i would like to say DONE DONE DONE for the 3 assignments i have done ^^
the 4th DONE for tomorrow and the 5th DONE for friday.
i planned to finish these assignments before the celebration for my 19th birthday^^
yea, i felt so happy recently, it's like happy from my heart.
1st) i have a bunch of new friends from musical and they are mostly from TT night and i m from OO night, well , OO and TT can communicate well too ^^
they taught me DOPE and WHACK which means good and not good.
they said this is the language of bboys..hmm..
2nd) i am doing well with my lovely boyfie, no storm and rainy day recently..hahah
3rd) some of my friends said i looks thin d cause they didn't saw my lil tummy yet.
i am going to killed this lil tummy.
TUMMY, i don't like u =p
4th) i am happy because i am happy lo

lastly, hope my xiao fei faster recover from the sickness mainly cause by a mountain of assignments i guess..hahaha.. and also my lil bei doing well with her boyie, i think she doing very well in her relationship, and hope miss m and auntie su chian found their happiness. no need to mention about soo mui cause she always tidak apa tidak apa. hahahhahahah love u guys <3

the very last thing, all the best to SPM and STPM participants
(especially siu keih, ee lee and kian wei )
as i told u all, don't come back to see me if u all did not scored well in the exam ^^

patriots of love

2010-11-19T08:36:00.000-08:00

tomorrow will be the day of musical.
The first ever musical held in the college hall.
And i m proud to say that i m part of it.
To be involve in this musical, i had sacrificed a lot things. (mid-term,assignments,ballet class,boyfie,family and also friends)
The rehearsal run from 12pm-8pm or 9pm or 11 pm just like today.
the previous week, rehearsal only run after the class which is 5pm. but still it takes all my time.
tomorrow will be the last day and also the actual day of the musical.
before that i am blaming why should we attend rehearsals everyday, and after tomorrow i might says why is it end so fast? i am just hard to get used to it.
because i love stretching, i can felt the satisfaction when i felt the pain as well ^^
besides , i can learn breaking too.
i m learning hand stand, turtle arm, l shoulder freeze and baby freeze.
(idk these name correct or not, but i know how to do it)
who said ballet girl cannot be b girl? here i m ^^
yeah, and lastly , i am going to perform very well in the show tomorrow.
between i fall down during the rehearsal today.
many bangaloos stick with me now, on my leg,hand,shoulder and also butt =]

做人的底线

2010-11-09T06:13:00.000-08:00

1.不做第三者，即使再喜欢；

2.骗我可以，如果被我知道超过两次，请你有多远滚多远；

3.如果你拿我不当回事，我会以同样的方式对你；

4.我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻；

5.我可以容忍，但别超过我的底线；

6.任何的真话，我都能接受。

i wish i wish i wish!!!

2010-11-05T00:59:00.000-07:00

i wish there are somedays when I'm hungry, there is someone who said come out now, mcd is delivered~

i wish there are somedays when I'm sleeping, there is someone who help me to cover the blanket so that i will not get cold~

i wish there are somedays when I m jealous of something, there is someone who said dont jealous, you are always the best one~

i wish there are somedays when I m late for a date, there is someone who said nevermind, girls are always late, take your time~

i wish there are somedays when there is a new movie released, there is someone who said hey, new movie is released ,would u like to go with me?~

i wish there are somedays when i have finish my rehearsal, there is someone who said are you tired? want to have some massage?~

these wishes are just a simple wish and yet i wish, i did not wish to born from a super rich family, i did not wish to have a porche, i did not wish my family to print the cash for me, i did not wish to wear branded stuff~

all i wish is someone who will be there for me when i need someone~

i wish i wish i wish!!!

一对彩虹

2010-11-03T12:23:00.000-07:00

雨后天晴，你相信吗？

一对彩虹你看过吗？

当一对情侣吵架后，感情会更好吗？

会比没有吵架的情侣好吗？

谁的脸色?

2010-11-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

每一个人的个性都是因为周围的环境所影响
我会迟到是因为我有车，我习惯一个人，我准备好就出门，如果我迟了就飞车，
我不喜欢载别人，我不喜欢比别人早一个钟准备好，然后准时到别人的家载他人，
车是为我带来方便，而不是为我带来麻烦
我不喜欢那些要坐我的车，又要我看他脸色的人，
你是我他妈的谁，我有责任一定要载你吗？
我并没有义务要载你，而我喜欢几点出门就几点出门，
如果你要坐我的车，请你看我的脸色，如果你不爽，请你下车，
如果你认为我很lan c,对，我就是有资格lan c.

i need money

2010-10-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

recently having financial problem seriously.
my wallet always left 100 or less than that, only enough for me to eat for a week.
movie? shopping? arrrhhh,i never think about it cause i don't have $$$
i want to work but i have ballet class on saturday, so what to do?
just can watch hk drama at home every weekend >.<
oh ya, assignment is all coming toward me and i hate them..
the craziness about japanese assignment is tutor asked us to find 20 vocab with pictures.
the picture cannot be download from the internet and print it out.
it must be in 3D form or something u can touch.
i guess this tutor must be insane, he said his ex engineering student can make the light bulb on the animal's eyes or have an aquarium with real fish inside and what he need is all in A4 size.
hmm.. first , we are not engineering student and we are not advertising or art student, we are international business student and we just know how to K books..well, die soon in this assignment.. good luck to me
and also next week onward i will be going to gym to build up, hahaha
due to the training end at 9pm and supper after that, i m gaining weight i guess.. >.<
i want abs i want abs i always told my friend, but they said u must be dreaming!!!

爸爸说的话

2010-10-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

最近面子书有很多post，当中爸爸说的话，我还蛮喜欢的

爸爸说：可以让你的敌人知道你喜欢谁，但不要让她知道你爱上了谁

一旦这样、不仅是你，连你爱的男人都会有危险!

爸爸说：女人应该坚强，不应该只懂得哭泣

除非是你的至爱离你而去，你可以流泪

不然..谁都不值得

爸爸说：做什么事都要讲究代价，人不为己天诛地灭

做一件事要想想自己有没有利益?值不值得?做了你能得到什么?

至少你不能因为做了而失去什么，这样不值得..

爸爸说：女人可以学会喝酒，但是不管在任何场合都不能让自己喝醉

爸爸说：要做个有品位的女人就要做到举止大方、谈吐文雅、穿着干净利落、有内涵

爸爸说：做人要低调，要知道枪打出头鸟

多想想自己出了头，会遇到什么问题?

爸爸说：女人也要有担当

每个女人身边都要有一个圈，站在这个圈里的人才值得你用生命来守护

至于谁内谁外，就要看自己的本事了..

爸爸说：交朋友不能交太纯的，不然你会慢慢被世俗的黄金外衣蒙蔽

只要你有能力，就要交奸而不诈、坏而不滑的人

因为这样..你才能时刻提防自己是否被他戏耍，是否被他玩弄?

爸爸说：不要轻易相信任何人

在最危难的时候除了自己的至亲，谁都不能相信

我们不会害你

别人..难说

爸爸说：我要你做的是一个贵族，而不是暴发户

所以无论你多么富有、无论你在什么地方

都要谦逊、礼貌、不卑不亢、虚心学习自己不会的

只有这样你才能不断进步，爬上巅峰。

爸爸说：在我百年弥留之际，我不要你保证有多富有，多有权利

但我要你保证，你已经具备了创造财富和得到权利的能力

这样..我才放心。

爸爸说：女孩子一个人在外闯荡，受了再大的委屈也不要放弃不要生气

要记在心里..

早晚有一天，让他们全部连本带利还回来。

爸爸说：不要做让自己后悔的事，要做就做让别人后悔的事

一辈子不长，如果尽活在回忆里了、就废了。

爸爸说：不要相信誓言，不要相信承诺

事实能证明一切，真正爱你的人..

不会给你太多的誓言和承诺

爸爸说：我最鄙视不孝顺的人，你也应该离那些不孝顺的人远一点

因为他们连自己的至亲都不在乎，怎么会在乎你这个外人?

爸爸说：别把自己看的太低，不如你的人多得是

别把自己看的太高，你不如的人多得是

你要做的..就是努力让前者变多，后者变少！

这几句我都很喜欢，红色的是更加喜欢！

ps:my boy said i can cut the hair style i like when i m in love too.. girl dont need to have a long hair, as long as u r trend enough..hahhahhaha.. i might cut soon i guess.. still considering>.<

envycious

2010-10-12T21:52:00.000-07:00

she wore a xl size jacket and she should be wearing a m size one.
she wore a basketball jersey with a high cut nike shoe.
she has a boy cut hair with a girly face.
she do hip hop dance and jazz yet she also do ballet , comtempary and cheerleading.
she is so humble and never show off herself although she do have a good dancing skill.
i remember that day she did solo dance-hip hop + jazz i guess, my eyes never stop looking at her, her move is so sharp and clean, body line is so good. oh, i mean she is so AWESOME.
she can make everyone stop their activity to look at her until she finish her dance , then only continue their activities back. and yet is just a practising but not performance.
the main point i write this is because of her hair style. something like this>>>

i will definitely try this if i m single again!!!

updateeeeee

2010-10-11T07:37:00.000-07:00

recently everything around me going smooth,guess because of him^^
result for the 4th sem is out, and it's under my prediction.

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD

well, will study hard for this sem(to get some reward from my mum, but not yet propose><)
there is a new event in my college which is musical.
this will be the first musical in our college-TARC
there are a few categories which are vocalist and choir,dancer and instrumentalist
and i m one of the dancers.
it's kinda tired cause all the time is so pack.
everyday the schedule is still the same.
class from 8-6pm, follow by training from 5-9pm,after clean up and dinner(or i should called it supper) and do some tutorial question, it's almost 1 or 2am.
well, i m still stick to the schedule that i planned for these 2 weeks, sometimes will ponteng lecture or training for once a week i guess. or more than that. =D
for the musical, at first their organising is not very good, and i feel like going there is just wasting of my time. cause i just go there and sit . but now they already start to teach us the steps, it's awesome, cause some steps are quite challenging for me, like roll back cause my backbone is not really good.
gonna have a good rest later.
oh ya, i m going to change my lil mattress cause it's too smelly.
i have no idea why the mattress become so smelly , smells like someone pee on it, but it's NOT ME.
and lastly, i m in love <3

爱，不见了

2010-08-26T06:41:00.000-07:00

过去的爱埋葬了
深深相信那纯纯的爱埋葬了
就因为一句话，我相信
现在呢？
爱，藏起来了
爱，它害怕了
爱，它开始怀疑了
爱，学会保护自己了

其实，她不会爱了。。。
等待一个人，教她什么是爱。。

可惜

2010-08-13T21:36:00.000-07:00

    女人不該讓男人太累

＊我找不到天堂　也摘不到月亮　對不起　讓妳失望
    妳的渴望　對我是很難
    太多人比我強　也承認我平凡　我已經拼命追趕
    妳的眼神　請別那麼冷淡

＃就算再付出　我都撐得住　我不怕辛苦
    苦到什麼地步　只要妳滿足　但妳何時滿足

△愛得好累　真的好苦　女人不應該讓男人太累
    雖然妳是我的一切　也別讓我感覺　愛妳很可悲
    愛得好累　真的好苦　從來聽不見妳一句讚美(安慰)
    就算我做的都白費　至少自尊讓我保留一點

ps:是不是可以让一个女歌星翻唱成男人不该让女人太累？
     要怎样保护自己爱的人不让他受伤害，同时又要怎样不让自己受伤害？
    我从来没有对我的决定犹豫过，但一切在你出现的时候改变了
    你让我的生活多了色彩，同时也多了黑暗，更有了灰色地带
    如果要我在这段感情写个评语，我会写............

不，完美

2010-08-07T03:44:00.000-07:00

如果你问我，你是否后悔过你做过的事？
我会说我不曾后悔我做的任何一个决定
但人总有矛盾的时候，
我唯一后悔的决定是一年前我狠心的让你离开
那一个错误的决定让两个人的生活都变了
我们习惯，享受单身的生活
但生活不管多开心，少了那一个人，
就像一个美丽的拼图少了一小块图，变得不完美了

这一次，我不带怨恨，不生气，也不怪任何人
我只怪我不够完美，不够成熟
我不知道这个故事会在几时画上句点
但我想跟你说，
嘴角仰上的我只因为有你

恐怖的人心

2010-08-03T21:43:00.000-07:00

世界上最恐怖的是人心

世界上最残酷的是事实

谎言是最盖不住的

我只能说你还是你

就因为你的不好而显示到我的好

是我天真了

相信

2010-08-02T10:01:00.000-07:00

不再相信因为不值得
善意的谎言，我不能接受
可能不是事实，但我信了一半
不是那么容易相信传言，但直觉告诉我是对的
事实就是这么的残酷
我相信我信的人，但不是你，
失望又能怎样？
自我检讨吧！朋友

关心

2010-08-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

没有说出来的关心
因为约束
知道你过得不错
幸好你撑得过
加油～